In an effort to keep it real to share my true feelings on this blog I am exhausted and my house is messy!
I have all intentions to write my food posts, and recapture my vacation.. and I promise that is coming, but for now, here are some of my mom thoughts!
For the past three months I guess I have run on adrenaline. Despite the sleepless nights and having a baby to take care of all day I managed to keep my house clean and feel like my schedule has not really changed.
Well now I’m writing to you, my house is mess. We have been back from vacation for a week and they’re still laundry and our suitcase all over the floor. The clean laundry, which was done by my husband I may add, is folded on the couch and I have no motivation to put it away. The mail is piling up on the dining room table along with other random junk and daily items that aren’t being attended to. I absolutely can’t stand it. I love having a clean house.
I love having a clean house so much so that I pay a cleaning lady to come once a month and clean it. Now that may sound a little snobbish, but for me it’s more than just a clean house it’s like therapy – when I walk into a clean house all my anxiety goes away. I truly feel relaxed after every time my cleaning lady comes. However a lot goes into having a cleaning lady come. My house needs to be organized and things can’t be piled everywhere otherwise she’s just cleaning around stuff and not actually cleaning efficiently. Up to this point I have not had a problem keeping my house tidy for her to clean but the tables have turned and now I understand motherhood is hard and there is no extra time in the day!
The difference between the first three months and now is I am back at work. Even though I work from home most days I can’t just stop what I’m doing and clean or tidy the house.
It’s funny because the sleepless nights have actually gotten better since Lincoln only wakes up once overnight. However I am way more exhausted. We used to put Lincoln to bed around 10 o’clock and now he goes to bed around 8, but I find myself so exhausted and wanting to go to bed around that same time as well.
The other thing that is tough is that Lincoln just started school, well daycare, this week. Like any new mom I am struggling with not being with him all day. The mom guilt is so real. (I’ll write more on that later). When I pick him up I want to make sure my undivided attention is on Lincoln. Sometimes that even means staring at him while he’s napping 🤷🏻♀️. Well that pretty much ties up my evening from 5 PM to 8 PM.… So when is there time to do anything? When do I have time to clean my house? I am now on the struggle train that I so often hear moms talk about, the lack of time and energy.
I know I’ll survive and I know it will get better but if any moms have any advice for me I’d love to hear it now.